yesyes its all our fault .
I want to apologise for some stuff
One, apologising for only hearing jeremy's part of the whole story and not hearing yours.
But you wont let us.You wont let us talk .You wont let us know what is going on.
We are not 5 yr olds that we cant see anything.
We SEE something thats why we agree with jeremy.
Well, what do we see.
We see a change in you my sl.
And hence the judgement.
Secondly,sorry for questioning about your relationships.
sorry for not knowing who i am to talk to you about this kind of stuff.
And i wasnt scolding you or whatsoever.
SORRY for putting myself in a sort of friend position to you.I know im not one anymore,now not even a junior in your section.
Sorry if i caused any disrespect towards you.
Thirdy, Im sorry for not thinking for your feelings.Sorry for not knowing how you will react.
I know that you would cry. mayb you did not know, how well i knew you LAST TIME,and how much i depended on you.
WE depended alot on you in the past yes. We knew you very well yes. We knew you cared for us, we knew you loved us.We knew. But now somehow i wonder.We depended on you for your msges for band, we depended on you being sl and taking care of the section. We depended alot on you.
We knew you inside out.How you would react to things and how you wouldnt like to see or hear.
Im sorry for not thinking about these things before.
Fourthly, Im sorry for having you to come help us early in the morning and having you wake up 1h earlier to come to the band room to help us even if its just a few minutes. We really appreaciate that.We really did . you helped me solve alex 5 bars before M didnt you. I really loved you for helping me and felt really grateful that wow i have a great sl ,not only an sl but a very close friend to me that i earned to be with during band.
Fifly.I know i have hurt you. But till now i still dunno the main reason as to why i have hurt you. because of that reason,i wouldnt think you would be if i told you before long long way before. there's is more to you that i dunno , more to this problem that i dunno. and i really want to know about it and then face you once again and clear everything.I DONT WANT TO LET YOU LEAVE BAND LIKE THIS.I WONT ALLOW IT.
Sixly, im sorry for blaming everything on you and letting you suffer all of this crap. IM SORRY for all of this. You are not that strong to be able to handle this ALL OF THIS. Im sorry for this.
LASTLY, WE DIDNT MEAN TO DISRESPECT YOU,HUMILIATE YOU,HURT YOUR FEELINGs.
YOu know how the sec 2 juniors are close to you. YOU DO KNOW how close we are to you. WHy are you thinking that we would want to do all this to you. WHEN WE WERE SAYING ANTI COMM it wasnt you. IT WASNT YOU! YOu are our sl. WE LOVED YOU WE CARED FOR YOU.AND WE KNEW YOU DID TOO. why would we do this to you then.
Things that i WONT apologise.
firstly,
we did not need you begging us to go sectionals least not the sec 2 juniors.
WE CAME FOR SECTIONALS ALMOST EVERYDAY AND INDI and i know you did too.
AND WE DID NOT NEED YOU TO BEG US . TILL YOU GET SO FRUSTRATED.
REALLY, did you ever beg us to go to sectionals?
secondly,
We realised a change in you wen hui, not after jeremy's story but even before. we see changeyou in you. we are your closest juniors(seems to be) , we see things that maybe you wont eveen know because you cant see yourself.
I merely said this to let you know about this. I really want to here your part of the story i hope you'll tell me .SERIOUSLY, WE DONT HATE YOU! wE JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU'VE CHANGED.
All of this is real. maybe its just me but im sure all of us will feel the same.
I wont want you to do anything but just read this.
even if you dont , just treat it as i'm writing to myself then.